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George Knebel's avatar

I very much struggle with silence. The church I am a part of has been on a spiritual formation journey that has been a lot of deep soul work. As we have been ramping up conversations around it more as of late, I had this thought come to my mind the other day.

I have been trying to get back to the gym lately and get myself in better shape. The hardest part hasn't even been getting to the gym or working out, it's everything that comes after the gym. Like trying to shower the next day because I can't move my arms. But above all, the hardest part for me is food, eating good, nutrient dense food instead of just eating whatever I want, when I want. And I wonder if the most difficult about our salvation and forming process won't be what we hear from God's word, but what we will do after? How will what we hear, read, learn, process in community, how will what God is inviting us into actually change how we think, speak, act, live? What will I do with what I have heard and what God is inviting me into?

And in this thought, my mind went to silence...

Silence is the beginning of how God wants to shape us. In our silence, in the presence of God, it is where He reveals to us how He hopes to shape us and change us to become more like Jesus, and how much love He has for us even when we miss it.

I avoid silence like I avoid broccoli. It makes me uncomfortable, it is hard to sit in, I can't focus. And I began to wonder, why?

When I am force myself into silence, it forces me to think. And not just think in general, but I am confronted with the parts of myself that I don’t often like, or the parts of myself that bring about shame and condemnation, the parts of myself that deny me the grace of God and instead pile on guilt and shame. And as I sit in silence, it is hard for me to get past my own condemning voice and hear God's still small voice. It is hard for me to apply the grace of God to myself because I am so used to partnering with the enemy and buying into the voice of shame, even when it is my own (and it most often is).

I appreciate your transparency and vulnerability, Ryan, in all of this. Thanks for shepherding well, even at a distance.

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Sherri's avatar

Silence is hard for me. I want to fill in the blanks spaces. What I need to do today. What my kids need. I don't have time to just sit here. I am too easily distracted! But I tried this. I tried to be very intentional and silent with God. And it wasn't so bad! I will try it again tomorrow!

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