That last point, though 😩 so hard. I haven't been practicing silence for very long, but one of the times I just started crying. There was no apparent reason, no thought process, no memory or image. Just tears. (I mean, not surprising if you know me, but usually I do have a reason for crying most of the time!) I felt God welcoming it and drawing the tears out as I sat and wept. It was uncomfortable, but immensely relieving afterward. I'm getting more comfortable with my tears, but it's the anger and irritability that is extremely uncomfortable for me to welcome...
As far as future topics... I'd like to hear more about prayer! The different types of prayer, the importance and implications, why does it feel like it doesn't matter a lot of the time, and maybe even pre-written prayers vs. spontaneous prayers if you feel like getting into that.
Thanks again for sharing your heart and your gifts with us. I always enjoy hearing (or reading) from you.
Camilla, I'm so thankful for the way you are willing to share so honestly and so deeply. I think it's beautiful that God would welcome your tears. I think of Psalm 56:8 which says, "You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book." There is such an intimate care that God longs to provide and often we resist. One of the my favorite things about you is that you're willing to press into uncomfortable space in order to experience something more of God. I pray you never lose that.
I also love ideas and I'll give them some thought.
That last point, though 😩 so hard. I haven't been practicing silence for very long, but one of the times I just started crying. There was no apparent reason, no thought process, no memory or image. Just tears. (I mean, not surprising if you know me, but usually I do have a reason for crying most of the time!) I felt God welcoming it and drawing the tears out as I sat and wept. It was uncomfortable, but immensely relieving afterward. I'm getting more comfortable with my tears, but it's the anger and irritability that is extremely uncomfortable for me to welcome...
As far as future topics... I'd like to hear more about prayer! The different types of prayer, the importance and implications, why does it feel like it doesn't matter a lot of the time, and maybe even pre-written prayers vs. spontaneous prayers if you feel like getting into that.
Thanks again for sharing your heart and your gifts with us. I always enjoy hearing (or reading) from you.
Camilla, I'm so thankful for the way you are willing to share so honestly and so deeply. I think it's beautiful that God would welcome your tears. I think of Psalm 56:8 which says, "You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book." There is such an intimate care that God longs to provide and often we resist. One of the my favorite things about you is that you're willing to press into uncomfortable space in order to experience something more of God. I pray you never lose that.
I also love ideas and I'll give them some thought.